My posts have been oh-so-heavy, haven't they? So, I thought I'd indulge in a moment of silliness. I found this little drawing while I was reading my journals from last year. It was a poor attempt to occupy my time (distract my panicked brain, actually) while I was waiting to be wheeled to the next test. The other choice for distraction was reading the latest issue of "OK Magazine" that my daughter had left behind that day. But, for some reason, the prospect of reading "whose whomin' who" in Prada and Jimmy Choo's was giving me a serious case of nausea.
So, with a suddenly sense of "inspiration" (or was it delusion?) I decided to draw instead. Quickly, I arranged my glasses, watch and medicine cup on to the tray in front of me, et voila!
Now I can strike "take painting lessons" from my bucket list. :-)
Happy Friday!
Life With Cancer
19 February 2010
Search
Why I'm Here
After having been hit with an advanced form of cancer in early 2009, I desperately raised my hands up in the air and asked "why me?" Apparently, there's no satisfactory answer to that question. So, I tried another one: "Now what?" That's when the road to discovering how to live with cancer opened up. "Live" is the operative word. Life is a process. And process is constant. Now, I don't purport my process to be the end-all-be-all. It's been quite a trip really, full of stumbles and falls. But, no matter how slowly or quickly, I eventually got up each time, albeit asking "now what?" many a time. The hope is that something here resonates with some of you out there, so that you know that you are not alone, or wrong, or beaten, or weak, or crazy – even when you raise your hands up to the air sometimes and ask, "now what?"
Yours Truly
- ce_squared
- I am in process "Process - the energy of being, the refusal of finality." - Jeanette Winterson.
Labels
- alienated (1)
- American Cancer Society (3)
- assert (1)
- atrophy (1)
- Auntie Mame (1)
- bald (1)
- beauty (1)
- believe (1)
- biopsy (2)
- birthday (2)
- blood clots (2)
- blood clots. Emergency Room (1)
- blood test (1)
- boyfriend (2)
- breast cancer (1)
- bucket list (1)
- CA-125 (1)
- CA125 (1)
- cancer (14)
- cancer awareness (2)
- cancer research (1)
- cancer survivors (1)
- Carbo-Taxol (1)
- Carboplatin (3)
- care (1)
- cause celebre (1)
- celebrate life (1)
- celebration (1)
- chemo (6)
- chemotherapy (4)
- comfort (1)
- community (1)
- confidence (1)
- Coumadin (2)
- courage (1)
- coverage denial (1)
- crazy (2)
- CT Scan (1)
- deductible (1)
- doctor (1)
- dread (1)
- Eat Pray Love (1)
- Elizabeth Gilbert (1)
- empathy (1)
- empowering (1)
- entrusted (1)
- ER (1)
- existential crisis (1)
- faith (3)
- fall apart (1)
- fight (1)
- focus (1)
- forget (1)
- fuel (1)
- global action (1)
- guilt (1)
- hair loss (2)
- healing (1)
- Healthcare reform (2)
- heart (1)
- hero (1)
- hope (1)
- infusion (1)
- insane (1)
- insurance (1)
- Internist (1)
- involved (1)
- Irish brogue (1)
- Keri Carr (1)
- kindness (1)
- learnings (1)
- living with cancer (1)
- loneliness (2)
- lost (1)
- Luminaria (1)
- Lymphoma (1)
- make up (1)
- meditation (1)
- move (1)
- neuropahty (1)
- not curable (1)
- Now What? (1)
- Nulasta (1)
- nurse (2)
- nurses (1)
- office (1)
- oncologist (2)
- optimist (1)
- ovarian cancer (2)
- ovarian cancer awareness (1)
- partner (1)
- personal boundaries (2)
- personal space (1)
- PET scan (1)
- pink (1)
- pragmatist (1)
- pre-existing condition (1)
- premiums (1)
- privacy (1)
- pulmonary embolism (2)
- reason (2)
- regimen (1)
- Relay for Life (2)
- remission (4)
- reset (1)
- resilient (1)
- revel (1)
- romance (1)
- routine (2)
- sadness (1)
- sanity (2)
- scarves (1)
- set the tone (3)
- sexy (1)
- sharing (1)
- shave (1)
- silence (1)
- solitude (1)
- spectacle (1)
- Stage 4 (2)
- Stage 4 Ovarian Cancer (1)
- Stand Up To Cancer (1)
- static (1)
- structure (1)
- support (1)
- surgeon (1)
- Susan G. Comen Foundation (1)
- sympathy (1)
- Taxol (3)
- teal warrior (1)
- Ted Kennedy (1)
- The Divine (1)
- touched by cancer (1)
- treatable (1)
- treatment (1)
- uninsured (1)
- visualization (1)
- WHO (1)
- why (1)
- World Cancer Day (1)
- World Health Organization (1)
- zen (1)
Followers
Blog Archive
-
▼
2010
(43)
-
▼
February
(19)
- Caveats aka "The Fine Print"
- World Cancer Day
- Those Dodgy Clots
- And Then There Were Four
- The Internist
- THE Nurse
- My Surgeon
- The Chaplain
- my prayer
- It Wasn't Lymphoma Afterall
- A Mere Drop In the Bucket
- Objects are Closer Than They Appear
- And Now, a Brief Moment of Silly Puffery
- Perhaps It's That Simple
- Even Boxing is a Team Sport
- The Man Who Took The Wheel
- Oh! But They Wanted Someone Else to Drive!
- Guess Who Ended Up in the Driver's Seat Anyway?
- Auntie Mame [Everyone Should Have One]
-
▼
February
(19)
No comments:
Post a Comment