may my heart always be open to little
birds who are the secrets of living
whatever they sing is better than to know
and if men should not hear them men are old
may my mind stroll about hungry
and fearless and thirsty and supple
and even if it's sunday may i be wrong
for wherever men are right they are not young
and may myself do nothing usefully
and love yourself so more than truly
there's never been quite such a fool who could fail
pulling all the sky over him with one smile
~e e cummings
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I hope y'all had a good Valentine's Day. Mine was wonderfully spent with my Sweetie.
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After having been hit with an advanced form of cancer in early 2009, I desperately raised my hands up in the air and asked "why me?" Apparently, there's no satisfactory answer to that question. So, I tried another one: "Now what?" That's when the road to discovering how to live with cancer opened up. "Live" is the operative word. Life is a process. And process is constant. Now, I don't purport my process to be the end-all-be-all. It's been quite a trip really, full of stumbles and falls. But, no matter how slowly or quickly, I eventually got up each time, albeit asking "now what?" many a time. The hope is that something here resonates with some of you out there, so that you know that you are not alone, or wrong, or beaten, or weak, or crazy – even when you raise your hands up to the air sometimes and ask, "now what?"
Yours Truly
- ce_squared
- I am in process "Process - the energy of being, the refusal of finality." - Jeanette Winterson.
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1 comment:
I love e e cummings! One of my favorites:
i thank you God for most this amazing day
for the leaping greenly spirit of trees;
and a blue true dream of sky
and for everything which is natural
which is infinite
which is yes
(the rest of the poem is breathtakingly lovely too)
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